Never Thought

Something I never desired or thought that I would ever do is go without sugar/candy. I love sweets. I don't feel like it is something I need to live without. I always like to eat a little something sweet after dinner or lunch or both. I like to eat what I want when I want to. Especially when I am pregnant I feel very justified in doing this. I've been miserable enough in other areas so food can and should make me happy. And exercise - I wish I could do more. But because I have not been able to move for hours after each session of exercise that I've tried to do this pregnancy I have just decided to forgo that avenue. I figure with all of the walking and up and down I do with my Kindergarteners and Lincoln, I will be okay. The back pain afterward is just not worth it since it already hurts most of the time anyway. Well now I have been told I have to do both of these things with two little words - gestational diabetes. It is amazing how much you think about chocolate when you can't have it. I actually have to think and worry about what I eat...ALL THE TIME. I can't have a lot of carbs either - do you know how much I love bread, pasta, potatoes, and all things that are now not good for me. Well, I am just hoping that it will get me into some really good habits so that if I ever do actually become a diabetic or I need to diet more it won't be so hard. Also, I am going to start swimming for my exercise to hopefully alleviate most of the after pain. Well, this is a feel sorry for myself post, so sorry if it bugged you.